Harlech's Xanga

Wow...

Sat, 10 Nov 2007 23:29:35 GMT

When can we ever find the time...

Cha, Cha, Cha, Changes!

Tue, 27 Mar 2007 10:12:19 GMT

So I totally quit my job as a car salesman (Yeah, I know, don't ask..) on Friday and started my new job today. It is basically what I did in Blackwell only none of the crappy stuff and all of the things I enjoy. Can we say "Dream Job"? To top it off today we ordered my work truck. A nice 2007 Chevy Silvarado Ext. Cab Z71. Plus a few other bells and whistles. I will take a picture of it when it comes in. I am stoked as all get out. I basically set my own hours which will allow me to pick up more courses in the fall semester.

Ohh-yeah! I forgot to mention I am going back to college. I only have two classes right now. Biology and Business Ethics. So I should be able to almost pick up a full schedule in the fall semester. I would take summer classes but the deployment to Iraq is going to ruin that. I got out of the military and 6 months later (October to be exact) I reenlisted, mainly to cover my tuition for college. Right now I am an English major, why, you ask? Well I used to love to write. And someone got me inspired to write again and so I started writing again, but then it all went back to shit. A very long story, but not really so much so. I like to pretend that it is a long story if only to give it some validity. Lets just say that my life as always is a roller coaster with horrific ups and downs. I miss the easy days. And if you wonder what the easy days were, well truthfully it is probably the life your living right now if you are reading this.

I love the introspective that Xanga has always given me. Just browsing through the latest 10 or so recent posters in my sub list I see that some people have stayed the same and some people are evolving before my eyes. Ash is getting married, OMG, WTF! . Eartha is having the time of her life in the states while still be a tad homesick. And Kara, well Kara is worrying about trivial stuff while building up to a life so awesome that us, the mundane, will be jealous of even the boring things she does, don't sweat the small stuff babe, you have years ahead of you to do that. Your way to young to worry about the things you worry about. Enjoy life while you can.

And where does that leave little ole me? At 25, soon to be 26 I have set very few goals in my life. Don't get me wrong. I have set an assload of goals, most of them unattainable. But as of recent I have tried to set some goals that will help to define who I am over the next 5 years, some attainable, some rather far fetched but a good goal none the less. And now I present to you my goal of things to do:

1. Graduate with a Bachelors degree.
2. Obtain my officers commission.
3. Finish my novel.
4. Figure out what love actually means to me.
5. Determine what I want to be doing 10 years from now.
6. Make the 7 the car I have always dreamed it would be.

6 simple goals for now, well at least 6 goals of what should be simple.

On that note I think I will call it a night and I truly appreciate every soul whom stops by, even if you don't take the time to say hello.

Hopefully I can get back into the swing of posting again and thus reconnect with some of my own friends on Xanga.

I love you guys!
Kyle8

Back from the land of dead photo links...

Mon, 12 Mar 2007 04:18:58 GMT

Wow, has it really been 6 months? How have you lived without me?

I just got done flipping through my Xanga reading some of the more memorable posts from the past. What a rush. Some good some bad.

Life has lead me down some strange paths the last few months. Nothing I am willing to get in depth about at this time. But I wanted to drop a line and assure everyone that I was still alive.

Perhaps I can find the time to make some sort of comeback...

We shall see...

Salud!
-Kyle∞

Yeah...

Thu, 21 Sep 2006 19:27:08 GMT

That Hugo Chavez is a winner isn't he....

G. Gordon Liddy said it best today. Hugo Chavez made a statement saying that if the US took actions against Iran that Venezuela would attack the US... As Mr. Liddy said, "That would be a perfect example of a mosquito trying to have sex with an elephant."

We go to war with Venezuela I will probably reinlist, lmao.

Salud!
-Kyle∞

Been awhile huh?

Tue, 19 Sep 2006 00:31:22 GMT

Been busy as work trying to wrap up the project I am on. I am tired of this place and ready to move on to a new project or a new job or anything new at this point in time!

On a good note, I bought a Ibanez bass guitar tonight. Got in touch with a guy who is going to give me some lessons so stay tuned.

Can't wait to get the bad boy in.

Salud!
-Kyle∞

Was it hot enough for you?

Thu, 10 Aug 2006 22:13:27 GMT

I got to spend 8 hours on my feet out in the sun with the 111 degree heat today...

To bad I got drunk at the bar last night. The day was very long, I thought I was going to die towards the end.

I love the bar. I get to see people I don't get to see all the time..

Tomorrow... Back into the heat. I will have Friday to myself. I am looking forward to that.

Well, wish I had more to write but I am about to fall asleep typing, lol.

Salud!
-Kyle∞

Has it been a week?

Tue, 08 Aug 2006 13:12:28 GMT

Well, there hasn't been much progression on my part this last week. In fact things have probably gotten worse than better. I did go apply for a new job on Friday, I have a few contacts at the company so hopefully something might come of the ordeal. I guess in life I never want to settle. Someone once said that that was the best advice I ever gave them. "Don't settle."

I think in this day and age its the worst thing you can do. You settle and that's when you start missing out on a lot of things. Not to say that settling is a bad thing, just don't do it early.

I have noticed lately that I don't look at people anymore. I kind of look over their shoulder a few feet behind them. I guess I have become disconnected from most of the world, just moving along on my own. Somewhat of a rift has grown in my relationship right now and I am not sure why, or what to do about it. Couples counseling might be on the near horizon at the suggestion of a friend who said it worked for them. Its hard to put emotion into a relationship when you don't even know what your own emotions are. I am sure the stresses of everything else that is going on has somewhat of a factor also. Perhaps all those items are leading to this rift, or the rift it self could be one of the sources that is throwing one of the other things off. I do know one thing. Its a lot easier to make decisions for yourself than it is to make them for you and someone else. But I have also learned from searching around that there are 3 modes of a relationship. The giver is the first one. The giver is willing to make any sacrifice to make their partner happy even if it hurts themselves by doing so. The second is the taker. The taker is just the opposite of the giver, doing what ever he/she needs to be happy at the sacrifice of their partners happiness. Its like yen and yang, you have to have both. The thing is to balance it between the two people. Which leads me to the third mode. The withdrawer, once you reach this mode you have emotionally withdrawn yourself from the relationship. I am afraid that is where I have been the last few weeks, if not the last few months. But as I said, it could be case of everything piling up all at once and one good break on any of the fronts could unleash the flood gates to make everything better again.

We shall see.

Salud!
-Kyle∞

Wednesday Morning Coming Down...

Wed, 02 Aug 2006 13:22:44 GMT

For some reason I am just not awake, I think that I was woken out of a state of deep sleep this morning and that it has altered my perception of what is going on around me at the moment. Basically I am "Out Of It" right now.

Work is tedious and meaningless at the moment, the direction its all headed is beyond me and my loose grasp on just what in the hell is going on.

I haven't had a decent post in months, some even say longer, and truthfully the group of people who still read what I have to say has probably dwindled down to two or three people, and you know who you are. Thanks for reading my often thoughtless rambles which my page has turned into the last few months. I used to post here with insight, comedy and a general love of the "Blog" with the hopes of entertaining some of the virtual faces that stop by for a visit, but alas time has run thin and now all I can do is jump on the web at sporadic moments and try to keep those who might be slightly interested abreast of things.

Due to such time restraints people should also realize that I do stop by when I see their name at the top of my subscriptions list. I may not always comment but I almost always take the time to read the latest if not the last few that I have missed from what is going on in your life. I really like to let others influence me and so I gain loads of insight from everyone else's either mundane or extraordinary happenings. Be it great or minute everyone I have come in contact with through this site whom I was not already affiliated with has had an influence, all of it for the better. I can truly say that I am a better person than before I found xanga and that I have more clarity on my life in part to it. Less strife or heartache? Most likely not...

When you gain clarity in life you often see things you hadn't seen before, that is why it would be called clarity after all. I have seen more about myself, the situations that I am in and what is important to me all in thanks to this community. I think of it like broken glass. Xanga has been the smallest little chunks of life's lessons, but some of the most abundant at the same time. A big piece may be one lesson, a hard learned one that torments and scars you while leaving thoughts in the back of your mind to plague for years upon end. But when you look at what xanga can bring to the table you can probably put together all the bits and create a giant lesson of all the little ones you have picked up. Take this opportunity to learn from each other.

Some of the things I have learned from my fellow Xangans..
1. You should enjoy your youth, it gets further away every day.
2. A smile is contagious.
3. Take risks to find yourself, because your truly lost until you do.
4. Selflessness will reward you more than selfishness.
5. Striving to please others will often alienate those closest to you.
6. Sometimes love isn't in range, sometimes you have to traverse a few states to reach it. Don't be afraid to go to the edge of the world.

To all my subscribers, thanks, and to all those I subscribe to or have subscribed to in the past, a bigger thanks.

Salud!
-Kyle∞

And on, Anon...

Mon, 31 Jul 2006 03:31:11 GMT

Things have been rather crazy the last few weeks. Lets just say that I went from having the fear of being laid off (Along with everyone I work with) to almost single handedly saving our shop by landing us a big contract. Well I didn't land it, but I did put the gears in motion.

I probably still won't see a raise...

I also did the interview in Kansas for the guard posistion, it was good. I decided to go with imagery analasys instead of general intel. So I will watch video and study photos and junk like that to determine if we should send in air strikes and such. Should be interesting.

Other than that... I attended a wedding on Saturday, drank a lot of beer over the weekend and have been all together lazy.

Wish I had more to say!

It Lives!!!

Wed, 12 Jul 2006 01:20:50 GMT

So much to say so little time. So what, per say, warrants this post, a post that in all reality has taken 2 months, if not more, to develop?

Well, as you know back in April I took a new job, that isn't in an office mind you, and have been swamped up to my ears in basically BS work. Well it has had its ups and downs. Right now they cut out all of our shop time so if your not on a job your not getting paid! Ohh-Noes!

No need to worry girls and boys. I sat down and had a chit chat with the boss man today to voice my concerns about not making all the green I need to live my fab lifestyle. Well this sneaky bastard has been pulling work on the side and developing a small crew to do this work. Undercut the company you work for and make damn near twice as much money? I of course was in.

Not bad ehh? I also managed to walk out with a brand new laptop today. This thing makes my desktops and other laptop look like ugly paperweights. Not to get into the dirty, but this baby has a gig and a half of ram and dual processors. You can fill in the rest of the blanks. I only wish my TV screen was as big as my laptops. I was due something like this. So that also is something that spurned me to post.

Goodbye military... Or maybe not.

Well, I separated in may, it was not easy task mind you. I failed a few hearing tests before they finally let me go. I was so stoked about being out of the military that two months later I called a recruiter and setup a meeting to get back in.

Yeah, I am getting back into the guard. I miss putting on the uniform. Neat thing this go round is that I will not be an aircraft electrician. I am going to be in Intel, in fact the job I am looking at is Intelligence Applications. My title? Counterintelligence Specialist. Pretty cool huh. Well that's about all I can tell you about what I will be doing. But not just everyone can get a job like this. My credentials all add up but before I even enlist I have interview with the unit, which is a first, normally you pick your job, enlist and go to it. So wish me luck, I should interview some time next week.

Other than that...

Can't wait to hear back from everyone!

Salud!
-Kyle∞